The official spring cleaning day happened on 7th Feb, one week before Lunar New year.

I cleared one big bag of clothes, 6-8bags and a few bottles of expired skincare products. There isn’t much things for me to clear in my room since I have done my mini spring cleaning two months back.

Anyway, I hearts the outing yesterday though towards the end of the day, I was grumpy yet no one was affected. Its all due to the spoiled mental clock. I can feel myself floating around aimlessly. I need my sleep back seriously.

Taiwan or Vietnam? I hearts both. I can’t decide seriously. Can we go after September? I don’t think I will be able to take leave in September.

Lunar new year is around the corner yet I can’t feel it. I need the few days break to study. Sounds sad right? What can I do? =(

Bak Gua Bak Gua Bak Gua!!!! Hooray! My house have Lim Chee Guan, Xiang Wei and Mei Zhen Xiang Bak Gua! I’m so lovin’ it!!

Anyway, my bro-in-law was telling me his friend Ad wants to bring me to Universal Studio. I don’t feel excited maybe its because its the wrong company. Going to the theme park with acquaintance? Will you be excited? Hmm.

Oh! Ad made some pineapple tarts for me too. All thanks to my bro-in-law. Haha!

Let me make one big confession before I go offline.

FL is a Big Weirdo!!! She doesn’t like people to go after her. She feels scare when people treat her too nice. She will start avoiding and go MIA. She’s running away again. Please catch her before she’s gone AGAIN!!!!

I don’t know since when I fall in love with you.

I don’t care what other people say and neither do I care what I have heard.

I may not know you that well but to me, you are the best of this world.

There’s nothing I can wish for other than you being with me.

I can accept everything about you, just hope you will turn around and look at me.

I know you do not like me, but I’m sure there will be a day you will accept me.

I wish for the day to come.

The day you will ask me to be your gf.

I am grateful for all the trips to school.

Being with you is the Greatest thing that happen in my life.

I love you.

***

Does it sound like a confession? Haha.

Not to worry, its not me trying to make a confession.  Haha.

It is a story I heard from someone. We shall name them as Andy and Belinda.

Andy and Belinda are colleagues in a company. Both of them are taking the same degree, same year in the same school. They always go to school together by Andy’s bike. After a few trips, Belinda fall in love with Andy. Apparently, Andy is a nice gentleman. One day, Andy found out that Belinda likes him. Andy did not avoid her but made known to her that he does not like her. Belinda knew it but still love him anyway.

The worse thing happened. The whole company know about it. All the colleagues asked her not to fall in love with Andy because he is a “play-boy”. Belinda is very depressed everyday because she can’t stop loving him. Belinda faced it bravely even though everyone is trying to persuade, convince her to give up. She still loves him anyway even though she know he sleeps around frequently.

Love is blind. am i right?

Seriously sometimes I can’t understand why are there such person exist in this world? I know I can’t say much because I myself cling on to a relationship for 4 years. But, at least I know that guy loved me dearly for once. But in this situation, that guy doesn’t even like her. That guy is just being nice to fetch her to school as a friend.     

If one day the guy feels that he should avoid that girl so the girl will give up on him slowly, what will the girl feels?

I think she will gets into deep deep depression. Poor thing.

爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现在眼角

***

Anyway, my mentor keep perstering me to go out with him. He asked me am I avoiding him. Maybe yes maybe no. I have to go out with him at least once. If not he will not give up. haiz.

Usually when someone probe about my previous relationship, I would try to avoid the topic.

I faced it bravely and does not feel the pain when this topic is brought up by my colleague today.

Some people will think that I took too long to recover, some thought its perfectly fine. These 4 years hasn’t been easy without the love from my family and friends.

I learnt to cherish and love my family and friends more. I learnt to take things easily. I learnt not to push myself too hard(trying).   I learnt many more things but too tired to list it down.

The world is not surrounded by him, I cannot live under his shadow forever. All thanks to him, I have grown up.

My colleague even thought of helping me to reconcile back with him. If its 2 years back, I may allow him to do it. As for now, let bygones be bygones.

Crazy P.

***

Anyway, remember I mentioned about the Robertson Quay dinner? Suddenly I remember someone owe us Fullerton dinner.

Who is it? Hehe =P

***

In a game of chess, would you want to be the player or the pawns?

Do you want to be in control or to be control?

I don’t wish to be a pawn and please don’t make me one. Maybe I really don’t understand you well. I fear rejection.

***

I have my soft spots. I hate my weakness.  =(

一个我像不会累一直往前
一个我动弹不得伤心欲绝
我不确定几个我住在心里面
偶尔像敌人偶尔像姐妹

一个我在网路上朋友一堆
一个我在房间里独自面对
灰色的音乐塞满黑夜 high的像麻醉
好让翻搅的胃安静一点忘了全世界

分裂前的热泪分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁越防备像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎分裂后的假面
不快乐不伤悲情绪埋藏成了地雷等待爆裂

一个我相信用心会被感觉
一个我大喊真心会被欺骗
开始的热烈不停奉献后来剩决裂
谎言吞噬了心带来刺痛撕裂的蜕变

分裂前的热泪分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁越防备像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎分裂后的假面
不快乐不伤悲情绪埋藏成了地雷等待爆裂

分裂前的热泪分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁越防备像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎分裂后的假面
不快乐不伤悲情绪埋藏成了地雷等待爆裂

Did I mention I have fabulous Lecturers too? I should bang myself on the wall if I fail my this year modules. Dr Lim and Mr. Ong are really fabulous lecturers. Thanks so much to them who motivate me to work hard for my exams.

Anyway, my mentor wanna treat me for a meal at Robertson Quay(if I’m not wrong). I’m not exactly sure which restuarant  but the only condition is I have to wear nice nice. What a condition right? We have not fix a date yet due to Ms Seah’s busy schedule. Haha.

confused. i think too much. i can’t bear to let go.

Need me to say more?

it just one of those emo days.

Can you imagine having six nightmares straight in one night?

I’m really very tired. Having to wake up in shock. I can’t remember what’s the nightmares about but I was totally frightened.

Overtime till 8pm. Really exhausted. I sat through for 5-6hours without toilet break because there’s too many things to do. System hanged and I have to stay back to manually key in every data which I have done for the whole day. Making careless mistakes here and there. Thanks M for waiting for me and send me back by cab. Really appreciate!  

I’m quite full and sleepy now. Should I head for my bed or should I just endure another hour to let my stomach to digest? Hmm…

My waist is missing!!! Not because I’m getting fatter. My whole back and waist feels numb. I had terrible backache whenever I’m back to office work. Duh!

Be confident and honest my friend. I’m sure you can do way more better than that.

Yesterday I forgot to mention my beloved er jie treat us Sushi Teh. I love Sushi Teh but its expensive though. She ordered my favorite Salmon Sashimi for me. Its 7 bucks ok! So much expensive than other outlets but its SUPER nice! The Sashimi is super fresh lah. Oh man! ‘m drooling now.

Oh, and I had Cold Rock ice cream yesterday. I had Chocolate and Mango ice cream with Nutella and chocolate chips toppings. After they mix mix mix, taste quite funny though. Haha.

Today my mum bought my favourite blackcurrant juice because she said we are dying of dehydration. Haha!

My dad said he’s going to sponsor for my CNY clothes. Come to think of it, I bought quite a number recently too. So I told him can I change to bags or shoes instead. Haha. He said don’t buy too expensive and don’t buy too cheap. Oh man. Must ask him what’s his budget. Hehe!

I love my family! They love me too! Muahahahaha! =)

What will it be?

Sometimes I do believe in when you gain something, you will have to lose something at the same time. If there’s something you have to lose to gain something better, what will it be?

This is not an emo post.

I have this thought for quite a few days. If I really have to give up something precious to me, it will be my memories. Losing all my memories so that I will have a good start again. There’s so many things I don’t want to give up. But come to think of it, the thing that I will gain is it worth for me to lose my memories?

Its just some silly thoughts.

Life has been busy recently. Work and School,Work and school. I don’t need a break and its not necessary to take a break now.

Finally met up with Jane and others yesterday. I had a good laugh with them. Despite the age gap, I really enjoy their company.

Two doses of espresso this morning before class. The first time I really paid attention in S2 class. See how powerful the java beans. It really taste awful though.

I miss my girls especially Siew because I rarely see her. We will have lots and lots of fun at BKK ya! =)

It backfired. Thanks.

Its 1200am!

I am so dead tired. I was home only at around 1130pm due to the late dismissal of MSM. Saw my dad when I was walking back. He came back late too.

I appreciate those who willing to share with me their work. I should do some reflection on myself. I will lunch in soon to catch up on my studies. Its 22nd already. I better buck-up!

I worked for 14hours each for the past 4days. Morning at WP, night doing ST. I miss all my tv programs. =(

Time is never enough for me. I should cut-down on my recreation stuff.

I’m trying hard to arrange for a meet-up but I don’t seem to have the time available. I’m so sorry.

I’m going off to bed soon. My eyes are closing.

Good Night!

如果距离是个问题，问题不是来自空间，而是心灵!

Simply love this quote. Motivational quote to me.